No more pencils, no more books, no more teachers’ dirty looks. But actually.
This is my first year not going back to school and it feels so weird. So incredibly weird. A lot of my friends are already back at school or going back soon and I feel mildly left out, but strangely relieved. I have been in school forever and now that I have graduated and have a degree I have nothing but open doors even though it doesn’t feel like that all the time. It’s definitely different because I feel like I have so much freedom and so many possibilities as to what my next step should be, that I almost feel crippled by it. The vastness of the unknown seriously has been harshing on my mellow all summer, and now that it is the fall I have decided to end my break from real life. After graduating in the spring I gave myself the summer to figure out what I wanted to do moving forward, but I think it kind of back fired. All summer I just felt like I was under the weight of uncertainty and this weight scared me and made me question every choice I have made thus far in my life. I think having the time to be with my family and to be with myself was needed because I really learned that I am not one to handle idle time well, but it was also good because I really got to connect with the ones I love the most.
But now it’s back to real life. For some it’s back to school, but for me it’s back to real life and back to figuring out my path. As weird as it is to not be gearing up with textbooks and school supplies, it is also incredibly freeing. After months of feeling heavy I finally feel light and ready for the next phase whatever that may be.
Stay tuned friends, you never know what is lying just around the corner.